I went to see if I could rewatch your cast but it isn't there . . .
you must have stopped drinking or soemthing because you underwent another personality change last night.
ya, yo uwere like 'I want to be told all the secrets' and then 'I don't trust anyone'.
so even if you were told . . . you might not trust that it's the truth.
so maybe you close your ears to truth because you are afraid of being lied to?
and it prevents you from learning or listening to those who have things to tell you.