Yes I remember grappling with Calvinism during one of my mission trips over seas. The bible is clear, God planted the seeds himself of course. Some people are destined to go to hell, while others to Heaven. But it's also important to remember that God uses everyone, sinners and saved alike. Sinners may displease God sometimes, but he also blesses them and is indeed pleased by some. For example, liking a song by a controversial artist, doesn't mean you condone the artist. In the same way God created this entire world, good and bad, to serve a purpose. I'm just a poor guy, with no assets or education or prospects to be honest. But God has blessed me with visions of Angels, as well as visitations from Demons. Even someone as low as me has been graced with hidden knowledge, and I consider my dream where an Angel visited me to be my greatest treasure. We all have a part to play, big or small. God Bless :)