Anon, even most of the shills here aren't actually evil. Some of them, yes; the more prominent ones, at least. People do things because they are desperate to feed themselves and their families, sometimes. But yes, sometimes they are fuckers; that's true, too.
The key to "being saved" is learning it's more about getting good at dusting yourself off and moving forward with a focus on doing a better job instead of pleading with God to "help fix it". As others have said before "Be the change you want to see in the world". I know it sounds cliche, but it's not. It's wisdom.