hey dipshit, why can't you find someone who is actually available for you and leave that person out of it, and spare us the spam of him?
you are in a state of rapture, constant joy, then, huh?
that you are a cancer?
well I would call you a psyop.
there are millions of men just like the one you like. Find one of those.
and cancer can be cured, so there is hope for you.
You make me feel sorry for the guy, and he's got a charmed life, so that's not cool.
cure your cancer by giving up your obcession.