I get where you are going with this. I am not a big fan of the clergy anon, I have had my own struggles with the faith of my childhood (RC). I have searched for alternatives to faith because I know we are not "alone". I do believe in an all knowing God or Creator…and right now everything I see as truth is being misrepresented as lies by those we trusted the most….I need to get treatment otherwise I my lose my mind….this is not fear based more of an assault of consciousness that I am fighting to keep…..its hard when the delusion is so strong and when you tell people the truth they tell you to be quiet or you will end up in a psych ward…so any direction from you as to where to learn more of that which you speak of is welcome to this lurker.