This is because you're a Lightworker my friend, aka "warrior of the rainbow" or "Indigo". You might look into those terms as well, many of us (probably most) here are among the vanguard in this spiritual war, one of our jobs is to sit for hours in a dark room on a computer so that when the real fun begins, we'll know what the hell is going on and can help those around us who will be losing their shit.