Anon we all feel like that at one time or another, focus on Gods light entering you and pray for some joy. It’s hard these days On sensitive souls. Serious about this this, get some natural 5htp either at pharmacy vitamin isle or health food store. Take 4-6 a day (just an amino acids cannot do to much), it will increase your serotonin snd serotonin uptake. Do it now. And call a friend or talk to us. Don’t die because of biochemical imbalance of other things going on in your life.
I pray for you and you have a lot of anons support here. If it’s an ongoing issue call a suicide hotline. Don’t do it, you are valuable, God made you for greatness. May you be surrounded by joy and light to get through this.
God bless