I can become angry as well. Exercise is great. Maybe join a boxing gym. Sometimes outward feelings of disgust, disappointment, and anger are not completely expressed and register as 'despair'. Odd as it sounds, letting anger out with some boxing gloves often lets the pressure of these thoughts out. You will feel your mind moving out of the despair loop and into 'anger' but this outward emotion is actually much more clear and easy to contain, to limit, and to stop. We anons can't loose anyone. You are a hero merely for keeping your mind aware of these strange and awful topics that we investigate.
a seated person with a book in their lap? why so white? I dunno
In what area of the country do you live? Maybe some anons have a place you can stay if it comes to that. I am sorry that our shitty society has failed you, anon. I am lucky to have a job teaching at a university, I can't image how awful that has been. My brother, a chef/cook, lost his job and seems very depressed. I am considering buying him a food trailer so he can begin starting something new. Can you think of a relatively cheap way to switch gears and be independent? Maybe this is unique to chefs.
The CPP barely had any presence. Trump in his early meeting in their magic palace or whatever probably arranged the whole thing. "Just keep pushing as if we don't know, and we will build a trap around continuance of what you are already doing."
maybe after multiple traitors confess live on camera and the supposed D-victory immediately implodes