So you did worse than Peter denying Christ 3 times? You're telling me that you've killed hundreds of Christians like Paul (AKA Saul)? What I have to believe is that you have some how (if your actions had anything to do with it mind you) have failed God more than the 12 disciples who weren't even there at the grave 3 days later when Jesus rose. Those cats scattered when shit hit the fan. Naw dude, if God can love those homies He can def find some love for you.
He made these! That is love!