I would say that you are one treasonous seditious asshole, there is a indictment for you. They know who You are. The day will come that they get you. You are fucked they will use the firing squad on you. Your absolute fear is really funny, you sound like you are absolutely hysterical with fear. You shiver and can't sleep. They will see you die, when you stand before the judgement throne of Jesus Christ, what are you going to say? Enjoy eternity.