I have been here since the beginning. A great day for me was getting a notable. I followed, learned, watched and believed deeply that somehow all of this meant something. Now my eyes are more open than ever to the horrors of the world, the evil that men do, and the constant double standard of justice. I had hoped and prayed that this would be something meaningful, that in the end, justice would be served.
I know I’m going to get trashed by all those calling me a concernfag or some shit. I’m very depressed and watching congress makes me physically sick. I wanted to thank the entire Q movement for giving me hope at one point that there was something bigger than me that could end all the evil and unfairness in the world. I don’t have much hope left. Why do politicians and the elite always get away with literal murder, lie, cheat and steal, then get wealthy, and the tiny people like me constantly pick at crumbs.
What the fuck has Rudy been doing? I see Lin Wood tweets and Sidney all the time. Special Counsel? Hundreds of Affidavits? Witnesses, and documented fraud. Computer scientists and statisticians. All supposedly just sitting there. Will it ever come out? How? I pray.
I have become more religious as I got deeper into the movement, likely from the human trafficking evils, so I pray that something, anything will happen. It’s hard not to jump down that rabbit hole and not have it change you as a person. My red pill into this movement was the sealed indictments. Still sealed. Literally.
Where is Huber? Trust Kansas. Stealth Bomber. Where is the DNI report? Pallets of cash? Human Trafficking? Nothing has happened to Rosenstein or any of the myriad of FBI, Justice Department and other 3 letter agencies personnel involved in the illegal activities of spying on Trump. Kevin Clinesmith. That is it. Everyone else lost their jobs. Guess what? I did as well in 2018. Then my wife of a decade decided to cheat on me in a grass is greener on the other side sort of thing and left. Now I get to see it all by myself.
Ignorance used to be bliss. The worst thing Q has done for me is to give me hope. As I witness the death of the republic, I had hoped, prayed for something to happen. I like the idea of freedom and liberty, but alas, they really are just a mythical construct. We are going to be corralled like sheep. Just watch congress put down a nearly violence free takeover of congress, but celebrated the burning of American cities.
Last I checked they were all walking around free. So are Hillary, Bill, the Bushes, the Obamas and George Soros. Like hundreds of corrupt people. Adam Shiff, The Standard Hotel and all that. Literally nothing has happened, but I have a giant Q sign that says “Trust the Plan” on my office wall. I don’t even know what the plan is anymore. Pass the popcorn and watch the Republic Burn.
My gut feeling at this point is that I’m more awake than ever and it is meaningless. I almost wish I could go back to sleep. I can’t keep believing that something will happen, live with that hope, and then have it shattered over and over. I’m totally depressed at this point, and I don’t know how I even come here anymore. Something good has to come out of this movement other than disappointed Patriots. I feel like a complete sucker, that somehow good would overpower evil, and God would win. I’m at my lowest of low and I don’t know how to move forward. Please, someone, give me some hope that I can hold onto.
God bless you all.