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I fall into an unusual camp.
Q is the military I wanted to join and be a part of. I joined with a plan that did not survive first contact with life. Theory was to be reserves, do college, then go mustang to fly.
Long story short, after parents passed away and I did finally get to deploy ... To be paid exorbitant per-diem as we watched convoy after convoy of equipment depart Iraq in 2012.... I became more than a little dissolusioned. Seeing the chief's mess broker the deployment as a political favor and how the whole affair was handled compounded with the fact we all knew something like the Islamic State would come out of it....
I did not renew my enlistment in 2014, as I fully expected to be shooting at our government and dodging predator drones by now.
As angry as I am at the population for being fools, I also wonder if I was a fool for leaving. Granted, what I want to do has changed/evolved ... But part of me feels like I could have been with the operators taking care of business or have been part of the team to make their equipment better - maybe kept more of them alive.
Can't help but wonder who betrayed whom, in some regards. Perhaps that is overly critical of myself, but there isn't much to be learned by playing the victim. Q and other autists are in a better position to judge my record should it be made available to them.
My last eval was kind of fun... Foolish in hindsight... But probably precludes any kind of reaffiliation. Well... They are always desperate for nuclear engineering candidates, that security clearance interview would be entertaining.