I basically chose when I was born. It's been a life long thing. I won't be satisfied until I meet one. Lights in the sky just aren't enough. Hopefully there are some good ones out there. I want to know the good and bad of it all. I'd assume there are both. Tired of believing things are possible/probable, I want irrefutable proof.
I've delved into those theories extensively, among many others regarding ET's. Still want that irrefutable proof. My soul will never be at peace without it.