Lot of effort put in there.
Sad that you think anyone is going read past the first few sentences. New to creative writing are we? It's just that your train metaphor is really boomer plus and you struggle to make it work. It's often said that effort spent on a written work allows the attentive reader a glimpse into the writers soul. What does this say about you? I mean think about it.
I feel sorry for you. You've put so much effort into this black pill, tried to give a train metaphor but in a really half assed way and I doubt anyone will read it anyway. What's more rather than write an effective piece, because I'm assuming your objective is to encourage people to leave here, all you've done is expose to the world the empty, black sadness inside you, where your love and your soul should be. I don't know what you've done to end up like this but you'll never influence anyone to do anything. You radiate falseness, your mocking tone is unattractive and you have no love or generosity of spirit in what you say or the way you say it.
Don't waste your time in failed attempts to influence others, go away and work on yourself, you have much work to do..