Sooooo many words tomsay I hear voices.
Only advice, if those voices direct you towards violence against others or yourself, they are not from God.
Dump the MJ, alcohol, cigarettes…. Go help others
unfortunately that leading self gratification is not my thing, no judgement here, just concern for your longevity.
But please do get out and help others, I find people stop judging me, when they see my actions to help others.
Bwaaaahahaha.
Ok, you good little communist. Now go rat out mommy and daddy like the little NAZI you've become.