I met with and stayed on the last remaing Disciple of Yoganand's Ashram out in Georgia back in 2005 when I was in the US. I too Understand the "Journey" if you like. Its more like a Trip, good or bad. I too questioned whatits all about. And here is what I dis-covered. What one calls Ego is the "thinking mind". The most difficult "thing" one will ever do is, NOTHING. When the human mind stops thinking a State of Being, a Truly Conscious State of Being appears as One's Natural State. I guess this is what Jesus meant by the statement "Heaven is at hand", lol, cheers Fren