Been lonely for 11+ years anon, literally living off the love of my parents. I found last year the most amazing person in the world. I found her when I least expected it.
Be yourself, find a way to enjoy life on your own and one day your sunshines will illuminate a female anon. Hell, it could be a man or a transgender you never know, all you need is a life partner, someone who loves you for who you are. Fat, ugly, missing limbs, none of that matters. The person who will love you will do so blindly. So make sure your presence is lighting people's day and you will find the person that you are missing.
For now, you got us. We love you, sure it's not actual love, but it's like family. First and foremost you need to be happy alone, once you'll be happy love will come. Talking to someone can help, a professionnal could also help you if you think you could use a hand.
Keep up the fight anon, God has a plan for each and everyone of us.
God bless you.