>My wife wishes I was dead now, thanks to this bullshit
Fucking lmao! There's still time to repent (metanoia in the Bible, radical change of attittude) and not be an insufferable QAnon tard conspiracy theorist loser.
Apologize to your wife for being an insufferable prick and tell her you wrong. Then get yourself adjusted and try to keep what's important in your life at the forefront (family, God, friends, etc)