I've ALWAYS been by the book for years! I have a high tolerance to pain meds & fortunately they NEVER effected my mental clarity! I won't take anything that messes with my head, like that gabapentin that made me feel drunk. SO my doc has been fine giving me 30 mg 5 times a day for several years! Made the pain tolerable & I always took it as directed! Now, cuz the pharmacist said that, he switched my regular meds after I told him what they said & dropped it to 15 mg 4 times a day! From 150 mg to 60 mg! Then switched my 75 mg fentanyl patch to mscontin that DOESN'T WORK! I know cuz last year, I wanted to decrease my meds & that's the EXACT regiment he tried & I took as directed of course & it was the most excruciatingly painful month I've ever had! Now, I finally understand why ppl resort to alternative means! This "opioid crisis" is what's going to actually cause a flood of RX in the streets! I don't wanna say anything against Trump but this is a HUGE fail!! It's been hard enough dealing with the sudden onset of peripheral neuropathy that took all sensory & motor movement away, pretty much paralyzed in my legs & feet that landed me in a wheelchair within a few months for 6 years! Then as suddenly as it came on, it completely reversed last year! The aftermath was apathied muscles & my feet stuck in a position where they won't go flat to be able to walk! I finally found a surgeon who was gonna release the fused bones on top & lengthen my Achilles tendon, etc.. it's a lot to explain but things had been piling on like crazy last month & that was just the last straw & IDK what to do!
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I have been thru SO very much lately and trying to stay positive & dealing with everything as graciously as possible while trying to just focus on reversing all of this CRAP I've been dealt in looking towards the future where everything would be better, thru a long, hard process but SO much has continued to pile on so rapidly! This morning I was on the verge of a nervous breakdown, I can't eat between what they found in my esophagus (since seeing my doc again, found the first regimen of meds wasn't enough & now on a 2nd longer term regimen) & dental work, I can't speak correctly due to complex dental problems that's gonna take a very long term plan to resolve, I can't walk but was given hope of a surgery that again would be a complex resolution of surgery & a long healing process, then a really long term & hard physical therapy process, that I was looking forward to actually, I cant see since my glasses broke this morning & said it would be 2 weeks to repair(the LEAST of my problems really, one arm broke right in the middle of the Versace logo)! But I stated repeatedly earlier, just one more thing & I was gonna BREAK! So, this afternoon I went to my doc whose been effectively keeping me pain free to a tolerable degree for years! The pharmacy I've been going to for 20 years said I might have difficulty with filling the same exact prescription they've been filling for years & because I told my doc this, he decided to change my regular meds to a pain relief regimen I tried last year for a month & was in excruciating pain EVERY single DAY! I made him aware of all of this but because I told him what the pharmacist said, he decided to change my regular monthly meds to ones that I knew would put me in immense physical pain daily! LAST STRAW! I'm SO DONE! Beyond breaking point! Can't take it anymore! I JUST had to get that out! Sorry, I've been here since early Nov. but not gonna be able to be on here anymore! Good luck y'all!
Thank you very much for your sincere support & advice! It's much more appreciated than you know! I'm very happy for you in the progress you were able to make! My reference to alternative was meant towards ppl who have had to resort to illegal activities like finding pills the wrong way or resorting to smoking pot! However, I cannot see myself doing either of those THINGS! Thank you!