AHHHHHHH IM SO FUCKING ANGRY!!!!! Fuuuuuuccccckkkkkkkk.ahhhhhhhhhhhh.. damnit why is it this way? Every step of the way, I have been made a fool. I think I understand. I have a grasp of what our movement is. I learn to not get worked up over things not happening. And then 11/3 passes 1/6 passes 1/20 passes 1/31 passes. nothing. Then GME and silver happens. And me, the apparently gullible cuck that I am just wanting to lash out and just begging for hope Or maybe me feeing like it was finally a way I could make a difference, and use people’s lust for money as a way to crush the system, decide to commit to it. I didn’t throw much money. fuck the money I lost. But I go into it spreading the word and getting excited about the consequences of what could be. I warn my father to protect his retirement telling him that a crash is going to come. And it still might but here I spread word. Yet again, After years of spreading word to my family and friends. I am become the Kook. I, just an insane person who cant see the forest for the the trees. but the thing is I STILL KNOW WHAT I LEARNED WAS REAL. I KNOW WHAT WE WITNESSED WILL COME TO PASS. But my life is eroding. I am suffering. I have overcome so many hurdles in these past 4 years because of this movement but I feel myself slipping. I don’t care much for this world anymore. I’m not going to kill myself, I might be a retard but I’m not a chickenshit. But A part of me is dying. The part of me that cares about anything outside of my own life. Only me and mine. Fuck the rest of anyone else. My care for this world will just be but a soldier left dead on the battlefield. I will rebuild my reputation with unknowing faces but my past life is all but dead. Even if everything comes to pass, I will still be the fool to those I loved. Some don’t even want to come visit and we just had a baby. Mostly because they don’t want to look at the crazy person They once looked up to. Fuck /end rant. Sorry 8kun I just have nobody and God has been silent as of late.