i swear
i used to think that was a relationship
like she babbles
and you listen
and you gotta
figure out
how to get her
to suck the dick
like
okay
where am i getting a blowjob in all this nonsense?
ohhh cool
you like this song?
great
lets listen to <our special song<>
until you
suck my dick
it used to go in order
like
there was a time to get my dick
sucked
and everything
was just.. not for the dick sucking
but hey
after a nice date
and treating a girl nice
why wouldn't she want to slob my knob?
i never quite saw it all so
>mechanical<
but looking back
the thought in my mind
too often
was… hmmm
i wonder
why she isn't sucking on it
lol
anyway
i was thinking it the other day too
like i let this girl move in here
and she was nice enough
but yea
like i slept with her when we met
but it was wierd
she was like traumatized or some shit
cause
i was like being respectful to this girl
and like
giving her some love
like, i am not just gonna plow your pussy without regard cause it is a one night stand
i will love you
to some degree
right
but she couldnt look me in the eyes or something
like it was over kill to even.. make a moment of eye contact
she was awkward
i was normal
anyway
i asked her if she wanted to have sex
right
like 2021 consent
obviously she wanted to have sex
she met me on tindr
and was in my bed
at 3am 6hrs later
okay
i barely need to ask ,like
'is it okay if i kiss you now?"
but
if i am gonna have sex with someone
i will make sure
to say
"do you want to have sex?"
okay
i dont need anyone mistaking my intention lol
so
whatever
anyway
we did it
but after i asked her
she like
took off her panties and bent over
so i could fuck her from behind
like okay
you are just ognna bend over like a fucking dog
and wait for me to rail you
like we talked about it
i think it was awkward
but she kept saying like.. i was worst lover ever or some shit
but whatever, seriously, she was super weird like
you are just gonna bend over and let me fuck you like a stuffed animal and be awkward over eye contact? either way
we did it a couple times
and it was weird
but i dont think it was my fault
i think it was fucking hers
i swear
she was like.. acting alter like she wasn't into it at the time
i had to remind her
like
you had my dick in your mouth
i didn't tell you to put it there
lol
fucking stupid
anyway
this girl moves in
and we dont sleep together anymroe
she is a fucking whore anyway
she has been with like 7 or 8 dudes
since i met her
a few months ago
that i know of
she tells me agbout the boys
sooo
whatever
she tells me but doesn't want me to think she is a hooker but whatever
she doesnt want the truth
she would demand i lie lol
basically
anyway
i would sit here like 8 hours a day listening to this girl talk
like i thought she needed to talk
so i tried to listen
but a couple months went by
and she wasnt "getting better'
and i did
i sat there and found myself thinking
this is bad lol
i know
but i was on my couch
listening to this girl
that i had convinced myself
was my friend
but she wasnt
she was using me <emotionally>
it was vampiricism
cause i just sat there thinking
like
i guess i could handle this
but… if i gotta deal with all her emotions… is she gonna suck my fucking dick
and i didnt mean it literally
but it felt only fair in my head
if i have to deal with 8 hours of emotional drama
she can deal with my 2minutes of shoving a piece of skin in her mouth hahaha
either way
i would only say that anon
on the web
never to a woman
but
whatever
anyawy
yea…. fucking women do not get it
like
i dont want to hear them talk at me all day
nobody does
but the behavior is reinforced
especially in "pretty" girls
cause nobody ever says the truth to them
cause they get triggerd so easy
they want tsomeone to lie to them
and keep their illusion of perfect going
it is gross
fuck them
nothing wrong with being hot and wearing make up and cute clothes
there is a problem
if you dont think it is a costume
or war-paint to conquer the world
with your
blessing of sexuuality and beauty
or whatever
it isnt me
i am just saying
if you think …. it is just normal to smother your face in horse blood and strange chemiclals to atract a mate
well
wait til history shows pictures of our culture
they will wonder
wtf
all these women are practically wearing skirts, that heir pussy hangs out of when they bend over to pick up something, they cut their hair off to the point of bald, pierce their noses like oxen attached to a hitch, and smother their faces in the blood of livestock while producing nothing but blowjobs and emotional drama