>>12898134 pb
>But no. That's not the way. I knew it, deep down I always fucking knew it, but I ignored it.
That doesn't sound very much like an oracle. I'd say that actually sounds like a person thinking/acting as if they have wavering faith. I hope I'm wrong, but I don't think anyone with any knowledge would admit to "ignoring" important data like that. It's on my mind as we progress.
tl;dr I believe your interpretation is incorrect.