Coming unannounced and stabbing me while I slept broke trust. When I risked life and limb to try to unite people against the puppetmasters this summer, you shit on me and called me a retard. That broke trust.
The words are going to come out all wrong with the inflection, but "It doesn't make any difference to me which one you are."
I have BEGGED for help for the last few days now. Today I posted about the last time I almost was killed (once again). Like someone or something is gunning for me. Either you have a blind spot to external threats or internal ones. I am telling you something is not right.
8-21-19
I sat down to center myself, to find my peace. So I can move forward in life and be self-sufficient. Almost killed later that day (again). Something is not right with that picture. Are you even aware this event occurred?
I hope you know how much I hate evil. Obviously I am not perfect and fall short of grace. When I am telling you that my loyalty is no longer guaranteed, something is awry.
I see the threads. I see how it can all fall together to finally free this planet. I am telling you, assuming you are on the up and up, someone or something has worked very hard to implicate you as the proximate cause of the misery not just in my life, but in the world.
I'm telling you, when I can't see how I would make the roundtrip, something is not right. I pray I am wrong, but man I can't help feeling there is a blind spot.
I get the optics. Really I do. I was applying to jobs tonight. I am trying my best to suck it up and carry on, but do you get how I would be super suspicious when every time I try to get it together I get stomped? Every. Time.
Is there a possibility there is another player out there?
I forgot to add in my first reply that I hope you find a fulfilling job soon as well Anon. Or at least one that pays the bills for the time being.