I say this with kindness. Get off the internet and stay off. You've already given up more than you know. I don't want to depress you further but you need to be strong and get yourself together. You will find once you get off the internet panic and feeling of depression will cease….You need to take care of you and forget politics, if you haven't realized by now there is not one thing you can do to change what's happening. Cherish your mind…