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If you are honstly on your search,
try this if you want and if you understand, I mean understand! Then read the gospel... Just the gospel! Let all the other book beside from the bible. Jesus never said it is about him, it is about his teachings! Because he is described as the logos!
https://kybalion.site
Maybe you will find what I have found. Not to explain but I understand the wohle! That doesn´t mean I know everything, no... If you understand the whole you will learn that you know nothing and the ride is started! Eternity!
Look at Enoch chapter 46 (just look)