Anons need advice

I am nearing my breaking point. I'm basically so out of faith and trust that I'm 100% sunk-cost fallacy - Might as well just maintain faith and keep trusting the plan.

My life is slowly coming apart and everyone involved is getting too tired to keep it together.

Most recently it's the "vaccine". I expressed disinterest in it and everyone is treating me like I'm a thoughtless heathen hellbent on ruining eveything for everyone.

So do we get it? Do we fully trust the plan and that either a) if we get it nothing bad will happen or b) something will happen and we won't get it?

I'm just…I'm out of faith and I'm out of trust. I'm really just recoiling inwards and I see no reason to believe that having faith the "vaccine" won't cause horrendous adverse effects. I can't really trust the plan when all that trusting the plan has done is make things worse for me.

I just…I'm lost and without any guidance and it fucking sucks.