I can't want to go back to fighting them on a level playing field, the human body is so slow.

You are all powerful eternal beings that are here now to learn life lessons of love. Once you die you do it over and over until you graduate.

When you graduate you remember each life and reunite with the thousands of souls you interacted with throughout history.

They don't want you to know this because then they can't control you and keep you in a box.