If it helps, and if I am not filtered from thread, I have been praying for the discovery and rescue of all of you victims since 2012, when I heard Russ Dizdar on Shatter the Darkness. I still pray that God uncovers the dark places where people are held captive. I fear they will be left undiscovered if the abuser decides to fight and then dies. I am so sorry for your horrors, and pray for full healing and ability to enjoy life the way God meant you to. Big MomAnon hugs of love to you. You deserve better.