Honestly I think this has been more painful. Before I learned to keep my mouth shut so as not to be misconstrued as crazy and be able to maintain “social standing” so as I wouldn’t be homeless (because I did that when I first “woke up”)
Q and this movement made me realize that it is actually fucking happening (is it?! I still hope) so I started running my mouth… now everyone thinks I am crazy and I am super isolated save for a couple true friends and you anons…..lucky I am smart enough not to be homeless again( even though I am pretty certain my house was target based on my participation here and burned down last august) but still too tarded not be broke …
The waiting game and every one I know sideways looks is fucked up. Def easier just to know what’s going on and be like Fuck it! Can’t do shit but work my little white magic over here… I guess that still applies…
Ho hum