You make it tempting to despise you. But I believe every man is made in God's image, and able to receive salvation because of Yeshua's sacrifice. (Up to the point that a man sells his eternal soul to the enemy.)
Re-read drops on mind control. Are you in control of yourself, or is something else driving you? Maybe try not sleeping with your phone for a week or two.
If you can still think for yourself, do you see any similarity between your behavior and someone like Austin? Anons that are awake can see.