>why do i exist?
>why am i here?
First, get a grasp on who this 'I' is you speak of.
>what do YOU make of this paradox?
What I make of it is this; We only exist as a construct. A collection of fragile memories, things we like, or dislike, everything transient and ephemeral. The construct convinces itself it is real, and has 'value'. This is the ego, it tells us if only this, or if only that, life will be 'better'. Life just is. Life is the thing happening around you moment by moment, without the 'noise'. Cabal like to create extra noise to distract you, but that's an aside. So what are (you) essentially? Consciousness! (You) are part of a collective consciousness, experiencing itself, through a human construct, for purposes unknown. Are you familiar with Copenhagen interpretation and Schrodinger and his cat? The essential stuff of the universe is 'only like it is' when directly observed, according to the theory. What I think doesn't really matter. What do (You) think anon?
>just 60 more years of mildly bored existing and wondering incoming?
Someone famous once said 'The ultimate Truth of the world is that we make it the way it is. And we could just as easily make it differently'
Some depth in that statement imo.
But, whadoiknow?
> if we can imagine all the details we would want to improve in existence, and existence is for ourselves to determine, then where`s the gap in causality that removes my ability to influence it the way I would like best?
Ego; Let go or be dragged.
Humans are essentially lazy fuckers. We take the path of least resistance, and although we may nobly want to 'save mankind' at heart, it's really too much trouble. It's designed this way. Relax man, the gubbiment will sort it, have a burger, buy some shoes, sit on your comfy couch. Nothing bad will happen, the people in power are working for (you). Who knows in 25 years you could be manager. Imagine that, finally the job you dream of, Manager! But, none of it matters. It's all chasing shadows. Aim for being 'content' and happy with your lot. You need surprisingly little to be 'happy'. Love the people you love, avoid loud and aggressive people, they are vexation to the spirit. No trick to 'life'. Just be.
>This retard read 'The Secret' and thinks he unlocked some sort of cosmic knowledge.
C'mon man get with the program.
It's all about the 'life cheat codes'
Shout the super secret numbers at the sky, become a millionaire, or famous, or anything really.
Cheat codes for life, for real.
>I wish to take everybody on tik tok, and kill them all in minecraft.