>> god spoke to me
>> told me what to do
Then do it!
>> has for 15 years
>> ignored him
>> It doesn't pay the bills
God provides for those who do his will. Have faith, Anon.
>> option is death or bankruptcy
Then you have nothing to lose by doing as God told you.
I'll say a prayer that you find the light, Anon. Godspeed and God bless you and your family.