OSS?
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It's not OSS banning you, as much as I wish it was.
Great. I expect this will take you a while to get through, as there's a lot there. As you're a Baptist, I assume you have some deference for Saint Augustine. In doing research, I found a sermon of his that I believe answers your question. In particular, this one: https://www.newadvent.org/fathers/160321.htm
One thing that he wrote, that I obviously agree with whole heartdly, is how hard this question actually is. So you don't ask a simple question, at least not according to St. Augustine.
>8. Lift up then, Brethren, lift up unto me your ears, and your hearts unto the Lord. I tell you, my Beloved; perhaps there is not in all holy Scripture found a more important or more difficult question. Wherefore (that I may make you a confession about myself), I have always in my discourses to the people avoided the difficulty and embarrassment of this question; not because I had no ideas of any sort on the subject, for in a matter of such great importance, I would not be negligent in asking, and seeking, and knocking; but because I did not think I could do justice to that understanding of it which was in some degree opened to me, by words suggested at the moment. But as I listened to today's lesson, upon which it was my duty to discourse to you, as the Gospel was being read, there was such a beating at my heart, that I believed that it was God's will that you should hear something on the subject by my ministry.
That being said, the sermon is long, and worth a read. As it's something St. Augustine wrote, it is taken seriously by the Catholic Church. Given the contents of the sermon, I think this is meant for you, and I hope it finds you well. As you read it, you will see what I mean.
In case I miss you, I will be gone this weekend for father's day. I'm not sure when I'll be back (I have some engagements early next week), but I will find you later and we can discuss it in more depth.