I'm so sorry anon. Your heart is broken..you're tired..you love her more than she does you..you are a guud man..you tried..that's not enough to make your heart feel better. Nothing, for quite some time, will make your heart feel better. You have frens here..stay close here..anons will stand by you..negative responses to you are, of course, are shills &/or cold-hearted anons. God bless!
WRWY!