then why do i abhor these fucks and want to see them swing so badly if i am a so called child of god. I hate this shit and it makes me cranky and angry and fed up and grr, and fuck it. I just want the world to be beautiful again, and make the world better so kids don't grow up fucked up like did. I really wish i could understand all this shit. I just miss my dogs, other than that i dunno anymore, till then i will just keep memefagging like i have for 3 years. Just want this hate to leave my heart but i also know the hate keeps me directed on target because if i hate it there is a good fucking reason. I never understood that joyous peace some christians claim. Battle is not joy.