Problem is… anon loves something so much it hurts every second of every day and even the milliseconds. Can’t escape it unless anon is here chatting about something else. Whether I’m on a trip, at work, or going to the grocery store… anon cannot escape it. It’s either a purposeful tormenting or just love Can’t escape it. Anon may never overcome this and that’s fine. Fair enough. Debt paid. Will never do that again. Won’t ever like being at the pub than being with a certain person. Some? Definitely. One person? Never. Will never live it down. Hopefully the next life, If that’s a thing, isn’t worse than this one. If so… God can retire my soul. Don’t wanna live a life worse than this one. No thanks. Many have throughout the past with actual armed conflict etc. maybe I did too. No moar. I’m done. Just want my family together although it won’t happen. Just so fucked. Never actually cared so much before: I retire