God, I don't understand why you would give me so much knowledge. I was unworthy. I didn't deserve it. I was arrogant and vile and foolish and I always doubted you. Why would you show me the truth? I was unworthy to see your glory. I did not deserve it. Why would you die for a speck of dust like me? I was the reason you were on the cross. I was the one who condemned you. Why didn't you forsake me? Why did you care for me? Even now I type this out of pride. Oh God, please forgive me. Please make me anew. I do not know your plan for me, but I ask for guidance in fulfilling it. In Jesus Christ's name. Amen.