Holy shit. are you kidding me??? This story was one of the first things I found wayyyyyy back in the day. I thought it would never, ever make it to mainstream
Why do you keep asking this? Only dumbasses and glow worms will be there
I found it when I got my first computer- 1996
I found a lot of stuff back then when the internet was still like the Wild West. You could stumble into all kinds of things back then
I found the blog of a woman who said Michael Aquino was trying to kill her. Which led me to find him on the web. Spooky shit before cyber security was really even much of a thought
People just put their shit out there for anyone to find. if you could think of the right keywords to search. Scared the shit out of myself a few times back then
I dont know what is going on with me the last couple of days. I am at once becoming more filled with anger and love - exponentially.
I prayed for the first time in i dont even know how long yesterday.
I have been thinking very hard about quitting the job which is the pinnacle of a very hard fought career. I thought it was everything I wanted. I thought it was a great company; I loved that the company walked the walk and didn't just talk the talk
But in the last year or so the company has turned - it has turned on everyone who doesn't check a diversity box. It jumped on the vaccine bandwagon days BEFORE the Biden announcement - which tells me they were likely tipped off in advance. It also tells me there is a good chance I will be fired
So I could - and should - wait it out, keep earning my paycheck until they DO fire me
So why suddenly at 55 do I have this overwhelming urge to tell them to fuck off and go find a small business - or two - in my community that needs help and go back to earning the kind of wage that I fought and struggled so hard to rise above?
I'm trying to figure that out. and im trying to at least temporarily clamp down on that urge until I at least have a plan
I dont know what the hell is going on with me
I also have no degree - in a family where that makes me a black sheep and disappointment
And I make really good money - way more than anyone ever thought I could. I used to enjoy my job — until they went all crazy and put a bunch of SJW women in charge, along with cardigan-wearing soyboys. Now I'm starting to hate it.
And with the addition of the vaccine thing…knowing that they are cool with that and even pushing it…I dont know how long I can do this. it is making me feel dirty
Between my son and I, we are slowly cooking up a plan. It will freak the rest of the family out but that hasn't ever been much of a concern of mine anyway. I've been freaking them out since the day I was born (a month early and nearly dead)
I just feel this weird…thing. Building up
I probably WILL wait until they fire me. And I will NOT go quietly. And when I start to make noise you guys will probably know. It is a very visible company
For now I think I feel called to get out there and help someone who has their own business and needs help building it up.
Funny, i have thought to myself lately that if I had it to do all over again I would have taken metal trades in high school and become a welder. That would have set many heads on fire in my family and my little town
Thank you for the support, anons. I've never posted anything like this here before, and I have been here for a good while - coming up on 4 years, I think. Couldn't even tell you how I found this place
But it is the anons who keep me here - for on average of probably 16 hours a day
I keep thinking something has to change - and in the last couple of days I've realized it is time to take the will and the courage and the perseverance that got me where I am in my career while raising three kids on my own and use it to help others who need a leg up and some hope
The thing that has always gotten me through sort of became a mantra over the years as I got knocked down over and over
Failure is not an option. Turn a tough ass and keep going. and never give up
Had that when I was a kid. left me for years. it appears to be coming back. must be God