>>1464411
I feel like I should apologize. I was very excited and I might have misunderstood your previous post.
>>1464065
I think I was meant to answer it. I am not sure if I can, to be honest. I will put down what rings true to me, though, I suppose, after giving ti some thought. A couple of answers ring true:
Love and Faith.
Faith because even thought we may actively destroy ourselves, what is us connects us with everything else, which is why everything can shift according to our expressed will.
I always understood "string theory" to be proof that the universe is an expression of thought; made of something, but as we see things are how the song is currently being played, or the strings are plucked.
Even when we try to destroy ourselves, that does not mean that the song has to end? I'm not sure. That feels somewhat wrong.
Love, though. Love… i you are to love something, then you are to let it express itself freely, whether that be for ill or not. To Love something is to know something because you cannot love something without an understanding of what something really is.
Something cannot tell you what it is if it is not allowed to express itself freely.
Even in the act of the self-destruction, as sad and terrible as it is, it is an expression of us.
That feels a lot more true.
>As for the rest of your post:
I've actually been wondering what the purpose of meditation is recently. I've been trying to do it after being told that I am empath by an angel "medium", one that's been reincarnated for a mission. It was a bit of a story to that point and since then, I've been looking for answers.
Meditation, though, is supposed to be important to me and I can understand what the end result would be, in theory, but I see in practice I may have been approaching it wrong. Well, all except for two times when I tried exploring knowledge of my past life/"real" identity recently.
I always imagine collecting energy and then spreading it outwards as positive energy and thoughts over the world. It's helped with some bits of my anxiousness, but recently, I've been feeling really excited. I've stopped smoking cigarettes, I've been waking up much earlier than before, I feel like I'm on the edge of my seat sometimes.
Then other people's dreams.
The places I've been, anon. I've been places prematurely because of DMT: I've been held and given the gift of Love, and given an idea of where my soul might have been born, I have banished evil entities with Love alone, been offered a gift by other evil entities that I nearly accepted.
These places are completely unlike anything else. I have been to terrible places, too. The medium has said that the "angels" say not to believe everything I've seen.
They did not say everything I saw was true.
They did not say everything I saw was false.
I've meditated and seen a world destroyed and that secrets have been locked in DNA.
But I've no clue how much of it is true and how much of it is just an overactive imagination.I want answers, though.
And I like you too, anon. If we've been to the same places, I hope they were good places.