The process of awakening is to learn for yourself. If you're continuously listening to someone else only to become a follower, that defeats the entire purpose. It's to learn how to discern and comprehend bullshit from what your second brain, the gut tells you, yes this makes sense, until it doesn't. And then move on.
All of this bullying and doxxing people, is what they do to Trump and his family day in day out.
I wish you well anon.