Why is life getting shittier? Because some fucking degenerate asshole billionaires, politicians, and their cohorts in media and Hollywood couldn't allow their pedophilia to get exposed so now they want to fuck us all. Keep an eye on the Ghislaine Maxwell case. It's only going to get worse. A day before I travel I have to get covid tested VS 72 hrs previously. It's going to be twice as expensive now.
Fuck Joe Blow.
Pray for me because I'm feeling like life is falling apart for me and my family, as my wife lives abroad in Brazil, but her state is very liberal and is pushing a Vaccine Mandate to go anywhere today (Para, Brazil).
There literally isn't one day where I don't feel like I'm having a panic attack and cry out in despair and nothing anyone says or does can change it. God too has not given me peace or comfort in these times. I try to feel like better days will come, but I feel no hope.
Also I am feeling that my marriage may fall apart because of all this Covid bullshit.
It is taking a lot out of me and then I find I may have to get a vaccine that I'm extremely against just to be with her. It's like break your heart physically through myocarditis from a fucked up vaccine or emotionally.
How can I try to enjoy life anymore? Anyhow, after a lot of crying and trying to catch my breath on how fragile happiness was, I'm just trying to think on better things.