>>15155284 pb

Thanks anon

but you and I know you can't take time off

there is no going back

you can't un-see this shit

it's like I am permanently broken

I am like a record with a scratch in it

and I just keep skipping

I have not seen TV commercials regularly for years

and just now saw some where they are pushing some drug

for a skin disorder

after all this covid fucking bullshit

now it is so obvious that every illness is caused by some poisoning to push some treatment

even hearing the fucking commercial now it seems so methodical

staged and hypnotic, It's like a formula and they are all the same

It's like living in hell realizing your entire life was a fucking wasted shit filled lie

there is nothing to go back to

really everything and everyone I know is part of the lie and believe it

tomorrow is another day of me awake or me thinking I am awake in a seemingly never ending nightmare

I suppose it could have been worse for me

and or probably still will be

I guess really I have been lucky

or maybe have been saved for some purpose still to come

I figure I just learn shit the hard way

and I got more learning to do

I wish I was not so fucking hard headed

or that I was smarter and could do something to make things better

I'll just try tomorrow to make myself a little better and go from there and see what happens

>>15156050

yeah and have been considering he possibility that I am creating my own alternate reality

and so maybe each of us do

like telling the water you poured in a bowl of rice every day you love it and it does not rot the rice

so for example coming here everyday and being exposed to all the shit fuels shit

not saying everything here is shit or that there is not worthwhile information to learn

but yeah there is a lot of negative dished that can't help but be absorbed

and I suppose i does not matter really where you are everyday but what you do every day

I an not some fucking Tony Robbins positive pumping guru but I think I am going to I need to some discipline

I think I gotta figure some way to juice the positive and pump the fucking LOVE

an rearrange the props on this stage

I needs me a happy ending

>>15156127

yeah that is what I am thinking about

Just need to ramp up the positive thoughts and LOVE

regardless of religion, or what you believe I think that praying is positive energy

so even if there was no GOD listening your mind, body and spirit are listening and reacting to the exercise of meditating and benefiting from the mental discipline of projecting the positive energy in prayer

I mean really does anyone ever pray for the negative so like the entire process is healing and a positive enlightening stress relieving action

>>15156131

I never got a Q that I know of

and didn't stop me

I ain't backed off one fucking bit

actually I'm a real MF now

Fuck Around And Find Out

>>15156224

Forgive me I will try harder on the LOVE

starting tomorrow

no homo

>>15156259

perhaps weaker than you

maybe not depending on the situation

I suppose I should just keep my thoughts to myself

I guess that is a sign of weakness

maybe I am learning

maybe not