>>15422571 lb

went to that barber a couple of times and one time, before talking about getting a job e.g. as gardener with my family (I guess my mom mostly) I saw a car from a gardener company (the kind of companie that also does little construcion works in the garden, GaLa Bau in German) with a guy inside parked where I had parked my car and parked in a spot next to the road on some yawn in a rather unusual way.

so I thought I should approach and ask for a job. I did. he gave he his business cart.

I called the next day I guess and we agreed on me showing up for what I thought was an job interview (later turned out he thought of it as doing one day work as test, had not brought any change cloth or dirty shoes or stuff).

when driving there early morning a song in the radio made me turn off my car like 1 km away from my place and claim it to be broken down, I even did some funny stuff and funny claiming annoyed faces to give the impression it broke down.

if you think it´s wierd that I did, go ahead, think that, it´s what happened anyway. I thought for some kind of reason either Trump and Mil or super secret societies or even God himself (back then was a mixture of thoughts most of the time) wanted me to do that for some kind of super important reason.

maybe I thought that I needed to show ww masons that I am able to read signs (obviously today I get it that it seems pretty controlled and obviously you are not to control me)

so I walked to a subway station close by to go to the job interview by public transport.

on the way there, like less than 1 km, I noticed people "seeing" me and "giving me hints".

that made me not go to the station (overground subway kind of, dunno how to say in english) not on the side on the street I had to go but to the other getting into a train away from the gardeners company.

people nodding their heads, looking strangely in a direction or something made me do that. ( I guess at that time it became less Trump/mil and more God who was "steering" me).

in the subway train people looked at me (at least some) in a way I considered them to be there to give me hints. that made me get off the train after a few stops. for tat particular hint or hints I was confused as sme people seem to be wanting me to stay in the train (me thinking that, they nodding or changing direction of view in a way that is just odd) and others wanted me to get off.

also I had no ticket and the ticket postmarking/labeling machine started making some noise (with they do every now and then) made me think to get one. that did not work, not sure now why, maybe bc no maschine to sell tickets in the train, maybe not working maschine, mayby no change.

when getting out one particular guy was looking in a way as he was to say "ok, dude, please do not leave the train, if you do if fail in my super secret mason or anto mason mason task and I will get big problems. he had wet eyes as if he was starting to cry why basically looking afraid and shocked.

but another girl gave the hint for getting out and I had no ticket. so I got out and felt bad about that guy.

[later it turned out very often that one guy seemed to have one super secret mason task like me opening or loosing my jacket to cool down my body and in the very same moment another guy asking me to do the complete opposite. in took that as "well, see, masonry tries to get people out of masonry by giving them unsolvable tasks.]

>>15422967

I walked around like radio controlled, lighted a cigarette when I thought there was a hint from some mason with that task (I wrote I thought it was God more and more above, but now I think I definitly thought of it as mason tasks)

when thinking about that guy from the train with the panic look I got the hint to light a cigarette (maybe guy with a white jacket that was somehow pulling and picking on it in a funny way) and I asked some guy for a light, bc either I had none or I had gotten the sign that I was to not use mine, or maybe bc no more gas left, dunno anymore, years ago and a lot has happened.

that guy replies with a very wierd sentence when I was thinking about the panic look guy and felt really bad bc I thought I made him fuck up his super secret mason task leading to him suffering or even being killed.

the guy that gave me a light replied, when I thanked him and gave back the light with a sentence I am going to write in German so that you understand.

he said "wenn der nicht mehr ist" and maybe an "ach" in front of that.

englisch: when he is no more.

in germany this makes some sense, I guess in englisch not so much, but it´s a really wierd thing to say and completely unusual. but if can be taken as "when that [favour] is no more, [we would be living in a bad world", meaning that ofcourse he would do me the tiny favour of giving me his light to light my cigarette. but it´s very odd to say and for me it meant "dude, you don´t have to care, there are many people/masons and that dude fucked up and is/wil be dead not. but really, just do not give a shit."

so I felt bad about it and just few meters from where I met that guy and he said that very strange thing that no one would say in that situation but fittet 100% what I was thinking about, I walked by a big board with the saying on it "one life for freedom". so that saying way either the quote from some guy or refering to a guy having devoted his whole live to freedom. and I took it as "one mason is gone, don´t care about it, just go on, freedom itself is far more important than one guy".

so I kept going to that interview but in a way that I did not take the best route and always tried to get hints or, what I was thinking, make masons successfully solve their super secret task of me going this or that direction or lighting a cigarette or putting it out (sometimes after not having finished it at all so it must have ssem pretty odd aswell).

as I am little lazy now will shorten the story a little as it´s basically the same anyway.

arrived at the gardener place. hatten gotten a take away coffee before (all bc hints/mason tasks) and entered his car when he was about to go get some material from some place in my city.

on the way he gave me hints over and over ad those were answering to what I was thinking. I guess that whole situation made me not fully realize that those people actually seem to be hearing my thoughts, something that would for sure freak put people but something I am now used to very much and which I consider the only true carrying the cross, bc it´s annoying, but can aso be quite funny when e.g. the TV talks to me.

it all get into a red/blue hot/cold way. e.g. drinking a zip of coffee, opening the window in the car while driving, opening or closing my jacket, stuff like that that has influence on my body temperature.

to shorten that story, I ran across my whole town, sometimes indeed running bc seeing people in red jackets giving me the hint to go "red" when I already had my jacket closed and was warm already.

even got a blue toenail from that.

and of course did not get the job bc when we stopped a the material place I was suggested to go leave the car and go around the building asking someine for a light, and there was someone with a light, but when going back around the building the guy was pissed of and left bc I left the vehicle w/o saying anything.

did not care for the job I I thought to have understood that this whole day was not about getting the job but about something else, maybe making masons see that I am a super great guy that can see signs. obviously I now think of it as being controlled while at the same time this just made possible what happened after and happened to this day. (again, you have to see it in a G way)

>>15422969

so one time he told me that a guy from the phone war game I did not care for (Q drop on that games can be commes), I guess the head of the team as he told me, had invited him to a place close to Berlin. and he made sure that this was again super secret mason or anti mason mason stuff and that I should join.

first it was discussed weather to take my car. later we agreed on train (which I offered to pay for, dunno why exactly anymore, but him and his girlfriend did not have any money bc he had no job and her job was prolly not paid well, caring for elders)

I remember that one time he talked to his dad on the phone on loudspeaker when I was present and they talked about something but it became obvious that they talked to me with the hint "please, don´t screw it up and make decisions so quickly" and that must have been reffering to using car/train I guess.

also I guess that day he showed me some tiny box (ceramic, like a grandma would have to put pills in) with his weed inside, I took a look at, did not care much, he gave a hint that it´s super important and gave it to me, in that box was alittle bit of weed and three nails.

(at that time Trump did the Q tip thing, looking like the scene of Jesus being put on the cross, one big cross and two smaller ones left and right)

later when telling my mom about going to Berlin she at the same time gave the super secret mason stuff impression that she was sad about me going there but she understood I was going.

later she even put pens (I guess two pens and a screwdriver) on the table showing that "crossing" sign.

I did not really know what to make of it. maybe I was meeting Berlin high up masons so they acknowledge me as Jesus, maybe I was going to die in Berlin in some kind of mason ritual. didn´t know. and being killed was a possibility which I considere likely. and it would have been ok for me, even thought I had a hard time explaning why it would be of any help if me Jesus / rainman (fighting for Q) would be killed.

when shopping the train tickets all three of our tickets were printed on one sheet and I asked about it bc not thinking this would be how tickets were printed out. the ticket selling guy replied in a way that I took as ("yeah, well, that´s not how it´s usually done and please do not mention it that obviously")

in the train I listened to those two guys (backery guy and his girldfriend) in terms of what to do.

when arriving in Berlin the guy we were to stay at was to pick us up. but as I went to the station people we giving me "hints" on what to do I I ended up just walking anywhere, loosing those two guys, shopping random products in random shops bc some people "told me so" by nodding their had, looking at a product or a shop or something like that.

>>15423078

you might ask yourselves why someone who knows he is the Lord is doing that. well, I thought this would help and had different explanations for why this would make sense. thinking this was to hide me and distract bad agencies (which is pretty unlikely given that I ended up at the place we were going to anyway :) ), thought maybe it was to show masons how super awesome I could read signs.

so I ended up not going to the car and being picked up by our host with the other two guys, but walking and driving by train all across Berlin (not all Berlin, but for like 2 hours or so)

I experienced that there is not a single place in that fairly crowded city where the would not be several people who seemed to know and hear me. or maybe not hearing my thoughts but being made to give me hints by God.

I remember going into a shop (with no clue what to do there) and when turning my view to a pillar with posts carts in it, a black and white cart just flipped (no more leaning towards the inner or back of the pillar, was a rotation one, but now leaning to the front ad towards me. was not due to wind bc in a closed room.

yeah, this was pretty impressive, like a miracle but I did not concern myself to much with it and just went to buy that postcart and put it in a bag with some other random bs tems I bought in different shops. I don´t know if I relly think about how this happened but I guess I either thought it was God or it was some kind of super secret technologie kind of shooting tiny bits of air to make that cart turn.

anyway, a pillar with many postcarts, just one of them turning in such a miracle way was cool to see.

after a long time in Berlin and after having a couple of calls from the bakery guy "hey, dude, where the fuck are you, what the heck are you doing" (but not in a pissed of way but in a funny way, a way that for me said "wow, you are pretty awesome, I sure as fuck am convinced that you are Jesus, bc you see all that hints.)

later he texted me the adress and I tried taking the train to go there, but again switched trains a lot and acted wierd. back then I thought it was maybe so to have someone loose track of me (agencies), but obviously I knew that going to that house was not exactly hiding when having texted the adress and when those others are there already.

for the last couple of km there was no train and I took a cab. on the way we casually talked, wasn´t sure if taxi driver also sees me and is either super secret mil or super secret society. when arriving at the house he shows me a picture of some guys from my hometown bc we before talked where I am from and he askes if maybe I know them (big town, so unlikely I know them) and they are standing infront of a lighthouse.

so that´s the sign for me. it´s all good and now either I will meet some high up masons so that they can make me super mason king or maybe they kill me in some sort of ritual.

I enter the house, make some funny explanation as the where I was like "I just enjoyed a walk throuh Berlin", something obviously bs but they all answered with a loughter that indicated "well done" to me.

>>15422977

yup, like when you said it last time (to say word salat is odd to say) I am going to smoke some "salad green" weed now.

but not bc you said salad, bc I am just going to do it now.

>>15423080

the guy I meet, the host that invited us to stay was said to me to have some money so that he does not need to worry, leading to him just offering to stay and food and beer and weed, but he looked not exactly like a manager or some rich guy but looked like I thought that this was how real agents (would look like. someone you would not expect to be. (either military or secret society or mixture, dunno but something along that lines)

that showing the lighthouse pic also seemed rather secret. but then again, I acted all wierd and ended up in a known place, so not really secret.

on the door of the little house (almost more a big garden shed then a house, but a real house with two levels out of stone) there was a "camera watched 24/7" sticker. but as this was a house with some fun and weed-dude-like interior it did not seem the same like seeing this kind of sticker on your bank or on a supermarket door.

in the house a lot of knight stuff, tine knight statues, a big knights armour and such (not like all over the place, but like he seemed very interesting in knight stuff). for me that again made it more likely to be some secret mason stuff including me being "put on the cross" and dying rather than being some kind of agency thing with prolly even me and those folks being picked up by helicopter when shtf.

also one knight stature was facing me with a

rather angry look, and of course I was sitting where it was kind of hinted to me to sit there. you don´t have to imagine that I would have jumped infront of the train if someone had hintet that, more in a "oh, well, I already smoked double the amount of smokes I would have and I really do not want to smoke right now, but if you really need me to solve this super secret mason task for you and if I can help you with that, I do it." (this rather for random folks on the train station and for bareky guy and his girlfriend and the host more like "ok, so if you super secret guys think that for some reason I would have to sit on that place, I will do it."

so it was more likely for me that some ritual was to be done to me. (I remember thinking being killed and eaten or eaten and killed and honestly, I just went for it and waited to find out)

>>15423469

I was offered a beer and thought this was maybe poinsoned or drugged somehow and drank it. I hold my hand to the bottle when someone suggested somehow that I was to "get my body colder". while trying to "act right" with those hints we had a conversation,m somehow political and I remember not agreeing with the host on something and saying so.

we went outside to go sit on the terrase and I guess have bbq or some beers anyway and somehow the conversation (I made conversation while following hints, maybe hard to imagine, kind of having running two programs at the same time I guess)

went into the direction of his house being cool and stuff and decorated in a certain way. obviously a huge kinghts armour and more knight stuff is what comes to my mind. so I say something like "yeah, you have a pretty specific taste for designing your house (it was a little house next to the real house he lives and sleeps in, a condo in a house with 2 or 4 neighbors all together I guess, he called this his little weed place to hang out).

his reaction was not to the knguth stuff but saying "yeah, I like bananas" (when I had seen one big yellow banana which is blown up and put on the wall for fun), so I say "no, I mean the knight stuff" and maybe "you must be a fan of knight stuff".

his reaction led to me interpreting the situation in a different way, as he was a little panicking and said to the bakery guy (officially refering to something else, or maybe not even to something else bc we were at that moment actually talking about his house design, but also another guy had arrived and maybe this was officially referring to something else happening I did not put my focus to.

anyway, he says "he is doing it again" and for me that means "using the world masonry" or knight stuff or something that would kind of expose masonry or them being super secret knights or maybe agency folks. that fits his reaction as he quickly goes into the house and acts a little in a hurry or panicking (not real panicking though, but very nervous).

he then says that the fireplace (a little cut off ton where wood had already been placed in) was then lit and, I don´t know if this happened few misn earlier or few mins later, a helicopter is been heard that gets louder.

not sure anymore what was said, I guess they said stuff that made me nervous in a way that was now not that secretly anymore. I member him saying something along the lines of "oh well, there they come, they found us" which made me think if the whole wierd berlin tour was indeed actually to make me loose someone following.

anyway, I was nervous and very specifically I was worried about those guys and if we all were to get big problems.

fire is lit. it´s hinted that I should go close to it and when standing close to it even going a little closer so that almost the tip of my jacket or shirt would reach into the flames depending on the wind.

I honestly cannot tell anymore if I actually saw a halicopter (I guess so though) or if I did not bc I was then after having been on the fire and gotten hot standing under the little glass roof (but dirty enought so you can hardly see through and was getting "cold" again, maybe putting out ma jacket and holding the beer bottle or drinking.

cannot really remember how it was in detail. but in general the following happened.

I thought that my body heat signature that was maybe to be seen by some helicopter from some agency needed to be changed to make them loose track.

and the helicopter flew away again after (and this i remember well) has been nearby and very loud for some minutes (maybe in that situation 2 or 3 mins seem like 10, but even 2 mins is obviously not a helicopter flying by but obviously staying there for some time)

>>15423470

so I am doing the hot/cold stuff. (not sure the order of events is correct, but also did the following).

• us going inside. somehow (from one moment to the other basically and just from conversations we all have but that do have just some random topic) it´s now about me tensioning my body so to make it even warmer.

and when I do that and do it in a kind of rhytmic way (or maybe just when I do it intensly and actually get warm by having mussles tensioned stronly) one guy says to the others "see, I know he could do it".

it´s really hard to understand, but I can only say it the way it happened. normal conversations as well as scretly "oh, fuck they found us" as well as kind of obvious real "oh fuck they found us"

• I go upstairs (all that I do now I do bc of hints and bc I think I would have to be hidden so to not screw up this meeting or whatever it is) and get undressed. I guess either one of them or even all of them are with me (and obviously me just getting butt naked it not that usual, even when having run accross berlin to "enjoy the city a little".

• I lie down on the floor bc this is cold and think that I needed to lie flat for some kind of "helicopter sees" reason" and I even crawl over the rather dirty floow (cold piles) and while doing that I am quite sure that all of them or bakery guy + girlfriend and host are right next to me, meaning me crwaling naked on the floor in fron of them. at that point I guess some kind of "click" noises startet that are like the noises from a metal thing that makes click noises when you push it you use for training dogs and other animals. but also could have been later.

• I crawl to the stairs, I get up and go downstairs to take a shower, a real long ice cold shower (bc hints and, maybe at that time not those click sounds but other sounds like them coughing or stamping their food on the floor so they don´t have to shout downstairs "yup, little longer cold shower please".

-I go back upside and lie in the bed that was not mine but the one that bakery guy and his girlfriend was to use. I lie unter the blanket, butt naked and somehow think I would have to hold up the blanket with arms and legs so that the blanket would couver my sort of heat profile (yes, I am 37 years old and know that stuff from movies) while getting colder body temperature wise.

(again, this happened bc some cough, or click sound, or maybe one of them shouting something downstairs happened. now it sounds funny, but fact is: I have been creating reality in that very moment) some of them were upstrias when I did that though, most fo them most time downstairs anyway.

• later I lie myself down under the bed while covering me with the blanked (which was specifically uncomfortable bs some stuff was lying there, laminat would shelf package, and I thought that the bed and mattress would have to cover my body from above. still naked.

• then, and this is also part of the truth so I am just going to say it, some click noises made me loose some fluid intentionally to try to cool down by body further and then using such fluid to achive a cooling condensation on my skin. this while lying under a bed which is narrow so that I can not really turn, while trying to not have my feet stick out bc of heat profile and while having my neck and head in a shitty position bc of the wood package.

• I lie there till next morning and rarly sleep (dunno, maybe not at all except from cuple minute sleeps, maybe an hour, but rather unlikely)

• they enter the room and kind of "solve" the situation with me having been very drunk the night before (making fun, nicely made buddy fun, of me officially), also little later claiming I took some kind of pill/drug leading to that effect, which I agreed to (then the person asking me, bakery guys girlfriend asked very suggestively if it had been one or two pills, wanting me to say it was two, but I am pissed of they make me lie to cover up my "helicopter hiding" thing by making me lie about that so I say no, "only one". keep in mind, above mentioned fluid was unter the bed. noone ever mentioned it again.

(will have a break now, and write the rest little later I guess, don´t really want to concentrate right now.)