You're not crazy, Anon. I've had similar thoughts.
All I know is that when I take a small break from here and focus on other things in my life, Q goes silent. Then Q returns as soon as I start paying attention again. I'm convinced at this point that Q is directly related to the amount of energy I put into this. I don't know how or why but that's what I've observed.
(Obviously I don't believe that I'm solely responsible for the Q crumbs, but rather, this how I've personally experienced "Q" in whatever reality I'm in).