Fuck, I hate this, feeling like this.

Being human with a person that isn't is kinda hard when you have feelings.

All I want is the truth of everything in my sphere.

Right now I'm an emotional reretarded mess.

What should I do about her? Is she here to make sure I don't do what I was born to?

please tell me, it has been 4 years of emotional rollercoasters. The pain is fucked.