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Lots in the book of Revelations lines up with what you're seeing now.
Regarding pain and suffering, this is one of the most common complaints against God and it's been addressed countless times, so I would suggest searching it out as there are far better reads than anything I could type here for you (assuming you're genuinely asking and not just stating in jest).
Look for the origin of suffering which starts with the fall.
Then, remember that God can turn all bad into good. Most of the bad in my life has led to much goodness. I can only speak for myself.
I don't know your life, and I won't pretend to know. If you are rife with grief, sadness, and misfortune, then my heart goes out to you. I wouldn't begin to talk down about it in a "holier than thou" way.
I pray the best for you and your peace.
Would you ever raise kids without punishment? I'm not saying beating, I'm simply saying punishment?
If your kid runs his mouth at someone stronger than him and he gets his ass beat, was it you who beat his ass?
Blaming God because you get your ass handed to you from time-to-time is fruitless. It doesn't mean he did it to you. Did he allow it to happen? Probably?
Why? Going back to the analogy, do you think your kid will be running his mouth to the other kid again? Lessons get learned from experience too.