Same here
I get it all, but you are forgetting something very important. We are sheep to them, I can't count how many times Q posted this. Your emotional response is EXACTLY what they want you to do. To be conflicted, to give up, to question all you have learned. At my age (middle age) I have seen enough at the higher levels and the local levels to know there is a larger narrative that is in place. Things will continue status quo. As each thread and pot gets clipped and holes are poked more and more truth will be revealed. This is not going to happen over night. This will take many years. Many of who you see in power will just disappear before they get found out I assume to escape punishment. Open your mind a little more and look at everything from a higher position. Our small perspective (what it has been reduced to) is what keeps them in power. More people feel like those on this boad than you realize, just stay silent for fear of retribution. I don't know who Q is (he, they, she, them) but whoever they are gave us some major gifts without outing themselves. They want to discredit us…very badly but its still advantageous to be under the microscope and do our daily digging and post our finds here. As Q also said, the whole truth would put 99% of the population in the hospital or to die, I don't know about you but doing this behind the scenes while everyone blindly goes on with everyday life is a war and a battle all its own. Never give up your right to know and find truth and if you believe in God, always pray. Prayer works volumes. Peace.