I will not lie to you. And indeed I thought about killing myself many times in the past few months and especially weeks.
and the problem is not some spooks or agencies.
it´s every single mason ww that sees me but does not follow me and still follows made up mason bs.
I love you all, but without you following me, with you even going against me, I cannot help you.
and I guess you can know that I prolly cannot go on like that for some years.