It is a choice, isn't it? and for the very same reason you can't except it now, ego,.
So you waste your life on being a victim?
Why are you here but to continue feeling sorry for yourself, you don't have to answer to anyone you consider important, you like the attention?
You are not the only one.
I excepted that a long time ago, I am not finished yet.
grifter…
The 4th SA
My grandfather was a pedophile. When I was a child I went missing, I remember waking up on a couch, I could see it was dark outside, because the front door was open and a person wearing a flannel shirt red and yellow and green stood at the screen door that is all I could see before I past out. As a young adult, I had a dream, I was walking along side a river holding my daughters hand in the middle of the river I saw my grandfather standing, he was laughing and I was smiling, suddenly a whirl pool started forming in the river where my daughter and I were standing it started to pull her in and I asked my grand father to help, it was then I realized he was evil and the laughter was evil and as my daughter was being pulled away into the water I yelled out NO!. The dream was over, but I had left my body and was ascending up to the ceiling, I turned to see my body on the bed, I had no feelings of lose, in fact , I knew that what was happening was normal, I had no fear, then a voice saying "its not time" and I asked why and I feel back suddenly into my body, overwhelmed by a calmness, I didn't want to let it go, I laid there smiling, happier then I had ever been in my life.
BTW, no concept of "time"
The hard part is you can't truly relay that feeling of 'love' with others. I keep trying, "no fear.
Vividly, always with me.
I believe that we we're born for this, I have had more dreams about fighting evil then any other. We talk to God without realizing it, I believe that ability is being messed with.
What are dreams? I would have dreams about Vietnam , I wasn't there, its like someone was sharing their experience with me, my step dad was there. I think we sometimes share dreams with people far away and close by
>mmense suffering
Situational awareness. I tried to teach my children to listen to that voice that tells you something is wrong, don't blindly follow your friends.. and so on. Its not super human its nature. Suffering just is, we either except it or push through it. Some of us are suffering always and can't seem to climb out of the boiling pot of water.