>>15947686 /LB
A weird statement. Bit of a sweeping virtue signal.
I know what you're saying though.
Too much water under the bridge however.
It's pathetic. I'm not up for challenging or 'competing' with people that have the ability I had in 9th grade, particularly when they get all fuckey over direction or advice.
Everybody knows it all these days anyway, so I just sit back and watch them get into debt up to their eyeballs, do things the hard way or with poor technique, and cut their own track. They don't even want to listen to my gold and silver spiel. I only do this for the overtime, because a Chemist or similar pays half as much, and I'd be stuck inside in a lab coat like many times before. A way more respectable title and career though, with higher quality colleagues.
I'd have to talk face to face to articulate.
Things would be different if I wasn't bouncing between rungs 2 and 3, sure, but some kind of distorted briefing tends to occur, totally agenda driven, creating faux empowerment, and I'm just way past that. I shouldn't be here.
If you are looking from the outside in you'd have no clue about this insulated, disfunctional game.
I was 3rd row from the front at school. Most in this game sat up the back. Everybody wants to rule the world in their struggle for relevance.
This is where I started close to 30 years ago. You'd never understand unless you spent 3 months in the gig at least. Social media can poison organic development too. Big trouble in little China. The bar is very low in the game. Bullying is rife. So is throwing people under the bus.
Everyone wants to microwave their way to management too, because everybody hates the job, and young people these days want to sit in an air conditioned office in front of a computer while the 40 to 70 year olds do the labour (whom of which were doing the job before they were even fucking born). How can you manage a team if you have fk all experience and you physically couldn't do it anyway?
We work with numbers. I've had doods with dyslexia that could be the world's best barman but are just the worst at what we do. I'm the one that has to fix their mistakes. I'm gonna have to think about getting into training and consulting in this industry if I'm gonna stay in it, unless I run solo, where I have been the most successful. People fight over fking sausage rolls and coffee mugs. Trash cars, run over equipment, shut down sites, lose, misplace, or forget shit…. I'm not talking the odd mistake. Then for a few bucks an hour more I'm responsible for the deadbeats.
It's uncomfortable, dirty, labour intensive, monotonous, repetitive, and 'leadership' can make all future tasks seem futile. The smartest people I have come across have left the game. I thought I'd seen it all in my time, but I've never experienced nepotism. I understand the desire for eyes, ears, and control, but it decimates talent. You're gonna have to take my word for it if you give any fks.
Incompetence and issues always get trumped by feelings and personalities…. of course. So friggin convenient. A great way to shift the focus off your shortcomings. That is very leftist. Address the root causes. Too far gone however. It starts at tender and in that fucking boardroom. I had one client ask me to change a report from fail to pass back in the day, because he didn't want any non conformances. When I didn't, I got nothing but grief and fking 2nd class citizen attitude. I can't explain this to a layperson or someone looking through rose coloured glasses. It's very deep. Anyway, I have extensive knowledge, experience, education, accreditation, and talent. I deserve to be around successful people. Sick of stagnancy and putting up with delinquents. If I fkn get the shits at you, and blow up Ramsey style (yes I evaluate my behaviour and think about how I could have handled it better), I don't appreciate the character assassination. Focus on the anger, not the fact that you're an incompetent deluded tool, of course. How convenient. Anyway…
That sucked. There's no way I can illustrate for you what it's like. We'd have to have a meeting or get on the piss with the handful of guns I've come across just to support my claims here because we all need affirmations right. You don't know what you're talking about when it comes to this.
… and if you are a suit and tie and in management and leadership, you don't have a clue, because everyone just sucks your dick when you get to site and they're on their best behaviour.
… yeah yeah I wrote so much text.